forever fat

Monday OK so the scales this morning (oh yeah, forgot to mention i weigh every day, i know most people say you shouldn't but I do) say 15 stone 10.2 lb which is 1.6 lb down from yesterday, so a good start. I didn't sleep very well, they say good sleep is key to weight lose, I'm not fat just tired!! I start work at 1315 today which is a bit of a pain but cant be helped, had planned on doing the treadmill this morning but think i have talked myself out of it again, I'll get back to you on that one. So the plan is to have lunch before I go to work, thinking at the moment it will be eggs of some description.

So time to sort this out, current weight 15 stone 11.8 lbs with a body fat of 45.8%, not good! The heaviest I have been for a while. Been trying to sort it for a while but just keep slipping back into old habits, every day starts with good intentions and I love Toni but I so wish she would quit filling the work biscuit tin up!!! Why Forever fat? well , I would of thought that was obvious! It feels like I have been fat forever and even if I manage to shift this weight I think I'll always be a fat girl, always thinking about what to eat next, always wanting cake, always having cake, digging the spoon into the peanut butter/nutella* jar (*delete as appropriate). Always arguing with myself whether putting my trainers on and getting the arse off the sofa is the right thing to do. I have decided to focus on slimming world. Free foods, speed foods and Syns ( apparently short for synergies and nothing to do with sins) Healthy extra A (diary) and B (bread, cereal etc). I have also ...